"FAREWELL" WRITTEN ON 30TH DECEMBER 2022

 

Farewell

~Ashmita Acharyya

The future, we dread so much will soon become our present and the present, we complained so much about will soon become our past. Now looking back on those times, I don’t know why I complained (I do and will still complain tho) so much. The good and the bad were all there for a reason. The reason being, to mould us into better people.

This new year, our batch won’t be just turning another page in our lives’ books, we’re turning to a brand-new chapter in our lives, leaving everything behind, yet also carrying everything forward in our hearts. I now get all the adults who always said that school will always have a special place in your heart. The past me would’ve brushed these comments off by saying that school is just for torture. I always thought that I’d be on cloud 9 the day I pass school, but now that the fateful day has come, I don’t know what exactly I am feeling… My emotions are a mixture of nostalgia, melancholy, happiness, fear… Fear that everything will change, fear that everything will go south…

I have had my share of traumatic experiences in my school life and I wanted to run away from everything. But now everything I wanted to run away from, seems so precious.

All the times, I’ve wanted to quit, all the mental breakdowns now suddenly feel like a distant memory. We should give ourselves more credit than we do, we’ve cleared hurdles, many fail to. We endured it all, the pain, the sadness, the occasional feelings of worthlessness. We fought and that’s all-what matters.

Today was one of the last days we’d see each other, most people including me, still seemed to be caught up in denial. We’re still unable to accept the fact that these are one of the last memories, we’d make in school. My hands are shaking as I’m typing these words, it could be because of the biting cold or my emotions.

As we’re venturing off to explore the world beyond school, we’re making promises. Promises, we don’t know if we’ll be able to keep. Formed with the purest of intentions, these promises. What’ll happen to them? There’s a saying which goes like, “Promises are meant to be broken.” Will our promises turn out like that too? I suppose, we can only wait till we find out and maybe put in our best efforts to never lose these precious people. All of us will also be exploring ourselves in different situations and we’ll see the world in new lights.

It still is incredibly scary to leave our most responsibility-less phase of life, because starting now, we are directly responsible for our own futures and careers. Our list of things to worry about will extend.

But that is still in the future, a near future but still the future. The future is intriguing because it is uncertain. No one knows what will happen for sure, which makes it all the more worthwhile. All I can say for now is that the journey of life takes another turn, so buckle up because it’s gonna be one heck of a ride! Farewell, my friends! I’ll never forget the times we shared and thank you all for everything <3